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Thursday, February 19, 2009 making-sweetness

my current fav emoticon. if it can be called an emoticon in the first place. it's just so ME. fine...maybe i can't contort my lips in like manner (it'll be scary if i could), but that's what i've been feeling these couple of days? weeks? no....probably months.

yeah...i realised that it'll come to the stage where i would write stuff in different places--1 for the world to see, 1 for me to see. one needs a mirror sometimes and time to reflect yah. it's quite obvious who this is for...the other place is somewhere else happily locked up and without many references to who i am. it will stay this way man!

andddd....my fav word in the oxford dictionary now is a toss-up between MOROSE and MORBID. very pessimistic words...I LIKE. i realise that this is the optimistic-side-of-jane blog, but heck.
MOROSE: bad-tempered, unhappy and silent.
MORBID: 1.unhealthily interested in unpleasant subjects, esp those concerning death. 2. connected with or caused by disease of body or mind.

currently, i've got an (unfortunate) addiction to liff words. SUPER FUNNY! they seriously express ideas and thoughts almost everyone has come across in a single word! nevermind that the spellcheck doesn't recognise them and the spelling of the words look rather awkward.

SEE...this is a SIGN that i should go get a job. i keep thinking of and about random (usually sad and morbid) stuff that i'm on the verge of convincing myself that i'm clinically depressed. obviously, a clinically depressed person wouldn't THINK that he/she is depressed in the first place. maybe i shouldn't study medicine at all. as a closet hypochondriac, i'll probably worry myself to death thinking that i've got some obscure disease that will slowly kill me.

either ways, i guess that oft-heard saying is quite true. there's no way to get something/someone out of your mind except by replacing it by something else that will fully occupy your mind. (ie, one will keep dreaming on and on about wuzun until the next big thing--maybe hu yu wei!!!!--comes along)

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as usual, it's better to ignore posts written past 2am. i'm slightly MENTALLY UNSTABLE and pseudo-philosophical at this hour.

oooooo...was reading someone's old post from i think...prelim time. it's an ex-sec 2 classmate (THE YEAR I GOT TO SIT NEAR ENOUGH THE BACK. YEAH BABY!) who went to rj through ip. and i quote "HCI papers totally shatter the ego, haha. Sure, challenging, but now's not the time for intellectual stimulation. I'd have thrown the '07 maths paper across the room, if not for air resistance. Throwing paper across rooms just doesn't give the same oomph of satisfaction as would, say, expensive glass figurines." sister, welcome to my world. i got stuck at my sis's binomial expansion tutorial btw...

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