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Jane. Child of GOD. Slacker medic. Part-time 'housewife', full-time watcher of dramas and variety shows. Ex-handbeller, occasional cellist, casual pianist. Who knows what else?

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suppose to do wr now, but i'm tooooo bored and utterly sian of pw. nevermind. this relieves stress....

anyway there is a BLOOD-RED LUNAR ECLIPSE TODAY. and the worse thing is that it was RAINING the whole day, so the thick clouds obscured my view of the moon. SO SAD LAH! i mean, Singapore is on the equator which already diminishes the probabilty of seeing an eclipse. when it is possible to see it, clouds just have to block the moon. so sad lah! my dad even drove my family round the back of MG since there's an empty patch of land there, but i still couldn't see the moon. :( couldn't even see stars....of course, he just drove past that place, while i struggled to peer into the sky through the car window.

disappointing. that's 1 reason why i HATE rainy days.

another reason would probably be the fact that i don't like to get wet. that happens when i'm walking home and the wind is blowing the rain into my face. the pavement from the bus stop to my house is also 'flooded' with large pools of water. my feet and shoes get wet. i hate getting wet.

the 3rd reason is because i don't like to use my umbrella. i just find it so troublesome to hold the umbrella. and my bag. and my file. and my cello (if i had ensemble). i like leaving my hands free. but i hate getting wet even more, so no choice, must use umbrella.

4th reason is that my things get wet. my shoes, socks, bag....everything. had to dry out my bag once after walking back home while it was raining. so terribly troublesome and annoying when books and worksheets get wet. bleh.

5th reason: i'm 'forced' to stay in school to wait for the rain to stop/lessen. waste my time, especially if i forget to bring work to study or if i really want to go home and sleep. well, it's still better than the next best alternative of walking home when it's pouring. at least i'm drier and i don't need to use the umbrella.

6th reason: slows me down when i'm trying to rush home. (like today). since i have to avoid the puddles, i can't walk home as quickly, especially when the ground is slippery, i don't want to get wet and i have to carry the extra umbrella. the bus travels slower too....slowing me down.

7th reason: the ground gets slippery. you know how the soles of nike shoes don't grip the ground that well? it gets even worse when it rains....this is physics which i won't dwell on. almost slipped a few times.....hate rain and wet floors.

8th reason: it gets cold and i hate the cold. especially when one is in an air-conditioned room, it's even worse. brrr....

9th reason: have to close the window in my room and take in the clothes which are hung out to dry in the balcony. so troublesome. this only happens when i'm at home though, but still....

10th reason: it's soo depressing. (except for mr ling who goes high whenever it rains for some strange unknown reason). the sky is grey and dark. it is cold, especially when there is strong wind. there are streaks of lightning, claps of thunder. perfect setting for some funeral or murder....read/watched too much of those things....

wow. jane's top 10 reasons why she hates the rain.

feel really bad.....my sis should feel bad too, just that we're feeling (or should be feeling )bad about totally different matters. nevermnd. just feel really bad and mean and stuff.

haha...i'm actually online so early. didn't feel like staying back to mug or slack. just wanted to sleep. shall not go online later, since i've already used the computer today, like now. haha...must mug later! of course there are other reasons why i'm home so early -like cello lessons later and other stuff.

school is boring. BORING! was playing a bit of hangman during bio prac...haha. but today is quite a slack day. gp and pw were so so so slack -i don't really mind though...haha. we were sort of dismissed early too! then went to coro with chuan and jolyn to buy stuff for teachers day. haha...looking forward to early dismissal on friday and holidays next week! yay!

totally NOT looking forward to PE tomorrow. we are supposedly going to do mass dance and I HATE DOING THEM! i mean...i have 2 left feet, ZERO brain-hand-eye-foot coordination and i CANNOT remember those stupid moves for nuts. how can it EVER be enjoyable? coupled with those cheesy melodies and stuff....haha.....i POSITIVELY HATE IT. others may have a different set of reasons for hating it, but this is mine. haha....don't like mass dance.

don't think soooo much people, leave those precious brain cells/space for storing the fruits of mugging! i mean, promos/prelims are coming...it's about a month away for mine. no wait. today's the26th of august. that means it's *shock shock horror horror* less than a month away!!!!! since mine starts on the 24th sept. AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! must spend less time on the com and more on books.

anyway....it was my 1st choir presentation today! yay! i like those songs! we sang 'press on' and 'glorious things of thee are spoken'. incidentally, the latter is the german national anthem- at least according 2 brother bernard- i mean they both have the same tune...so it's supposedly nic lu's fav song.....don't know how true that is either.

soooo...got up at 7.50 today. that's a whole hour earlier than usual. wow. was still 5 min late so nevermind.... jeffrey was being lame as usual...haha. as in the one in my yf group, not jeff cai. anyways he had a bao fetish....asked mi before service and before choir later in the afternoon if there was time to hop over to ntuc to get a bao coz he was starving..... he must be addicted to baos...haha....

AND really good news! i finished all my due-on-monday homework during the week so i don't need to study on sunday! yes! major achievement! haha...shall try to accomplish that again in the upcoming week. that means using the computer even less....

ooo...this is quite fun actually...koped it off the hcse blog....haha...try it!



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ok....slept until 11+ this morning? oh wells....accumulated tiredness i guess....

anyway. i love the mudpie. everyone should try it at least once! yes, we must go there or somewhere else to eat ice cream krystle!!!!!! oh and my math teacher was a bit random on thurs and started telling us about his dream in the middle of the lecture. related to some army ghost story...oh wells. at least i understand when he teaches, not like this other math lecturer we had. rushed out my econs market failure and math maclaurin expansion tutorial when i got back. kept taking naps in between doing work though...too tired...

friday. normal (and very sian) lessons. found out that AC IS LUCKY ENOUGH TO CELEBRATE TEACHERS' DAY ON THURS AND THEY GET FRIDAY OFF!?!?!? that is sooo not fair. i want extra holidays! not fair! i have normal lessons and an econs data-reponse question test on thurs while others are slacking.....NOT FAIR!

went out with chuan after school to eat dinner, buy things and go for Inspire. rushed here and there so didn't really have a proper dinner, like a sandwich, chicken pie and famous amos like 10 min before the concert? oh wells...at least we accomplished what we set out to do. got a bit lost going to nus too, probably because we got off at the wrong stop. the concert wasn't all that bad, but it was quite empty and those confetti things kept refusing to work. the performers they invited were quite good, just no atmosphere? oh and i was quite sleepy too. quite surprised to see teri performing with a group of hc guys. i've heard of that band, but didn't know teri was in it. she still sings quite well though.

poor guitar people. practised/sat around until almost 9 so they wasted their tickets. oh well. chuan's mum is soooo nice, fetched us to orchard and back from nus. soo nice lah.


in a bit of a dilemma now over my choice of words when i say things. don't want to disappoint or give false hope. don't want to hurt but don't want to give this wrong impression. want to express a certain feeling but actually don't want others to know what i feel or think..... this is quite random and confusing. nevermind. ignore me. shall randomly post the lyrics of this song that i have taken a liking to recently. is not a very recent song, but its nice! haha.

it's friday! i've been studying/doing tutorials all week. or else i'm too tired to use the computer to blog. anyway, that means that i have accumulated stuff that i want to write about, so this post should be quite looooooooooong. haha. better go in chronological order, easier to organise.

forgot to mention that nat crashed hc on tues! yes, it's nat ng! my primary school buddy! i remember taking her food during recess everyday in p3 or 4 i think? can't remember exactly. i only remembered that i looked forward to the days when she brought pancakes. :P haha. oh, and we did a lot of retarded things together. oh and addy kept taking her pencil case...it's getting more random.anyway, we talked for quite a while. sammy and mandy are in RJ now. not surprising. do miss those carefree primary school days where we weren't so worried about our psle, but played freeze-and-melt during recess almost everyday....sigh....

had teachers day concert rehersal on weds. played quite terribly, but some said it was good? don't know what's wrong with their ears. nevermind. did work as usual when i got home.

thursday was terrible. had chem spa on energetics which i cldn't finish and one part of calculations that i'm not sure about. and got my math lecture test back. luckily i didn't fail the test. but still felt sort of depressed so went to eat at island creamery with cheryl. the mud pie was good!

i think i better con't tomorrow. fell asleep at the com just now.

yes! i'm done with my pw! suppose to conduct a mini-event tomorrow. it's a station-game thingy. i hope it really works out though....please try to look like you're having fun even though you don't feel that it is very fun....

anyway. mustbeagoodstewardofmytime. mustbeagoodstewardofmytime. MUST BE A GOOD STEWARD OF MY TIME! since i can't have more time, i must really learn how to use it wisely. that's quite hard since i have a knack for wasting time, be it by stoning, reading rubbish, talking to people on msn/sms/real life. wasting time is officially my forte. i'll ace it if it were examinable! unfortunately it's not. :( too bad for jane.

if i really use every single hour meaningfully, i can finish all my work before sunday! then i wouldn't be so tempted to do it! yay! must keep the sabbath holy too. argh....that is if i CAN use my time wisely. but with God's help....anything is possible!

studied in school today and washed a car. better than sleeping, which is what i would have done should i come home early. at least i did a few questions of math and chem. wasn't very productive for the last hour since i talked more than i did work. haha...oh well.

better sleep now....i'm not using my time that well when i keep typing posts.....

really busy the past few days. must thank God for giving me strength to see me through it all...

sigh...my computer was going mad these few days. it either hanged, auto-shut down or hanged then auto-shut down. how annoying. BUT i, or rather my dad, downloaded the thing to fix the problem. jane the computer noob doesn't know the exact name for it, but it sure works! at least it hasn't collapsed on me in the past hour...

tried out the piano scores for secret. soooo nice! even my sister likes it...since it is quite classical after all. she says it's suitably emo. and i tried playing (more like sight-reading) the duet thing with her. sounded quite ok....haha....yay! at least both our sight-reading skills not that bad, still can pull it off....

that last post was really tongue-in-cheek....i don't really know if i will fail. all i know is that i cannot change it and that i can always depend on the Lord to see me through all this coz He is my source of strength! whatever marks i get, it's all God's will....oh wells, He knows what's best.

didn't finish econs timed assignment. nevermind. been getting distracted very easily by a lot of things. sigh.

ate a lot of nice sweet food like chocolate and ice cream this past 2 days. went to venezia with my sister yesterday as her (belated) birthday treat. it's definitely a couple hideout, saw so many couples there....sheesh. then ate a lot of chocolate today, courtesy of my friends who came back from UK, bringing a lot of chocolate back with them. VERY VERY NICE! SO SWEET AND CREAMY! i lurve chocolates!

well, so my post does end on a sweeter, happier note.

Congrats Jane! You are officially going to fail your Bio SPA!
justification of statement:
- you didn't finish writing the conclusion
- the part of the conclusion you wrote down may not even be relevant
- you didn't put values into your conclusion
- your graph for skill c is not in ascending order for independent variable
- your graph looks hideously not smooth
- what you wrote for the calibration part may not be correct
- the measurements you took may be wrong......

causes for failure
- never study thoroughly enough
- poor memory
- carelessness
- eye pain from peering into the microscope for sooooooooooooo long
- never sleep enough the previous night
- poor poor poor time management

haha... just being lame. i can actually name a lot more things i didn't do correctly. maybe i should just go and emo in one corner, playing 'the swan' on my cello in the most haunting manner....actually i wouldn't because its a waste of my time. i've got sooooooooooo many other things to do ....

other things i'll fail:
- econs timed assignment
- math class test if there's one
- math lecture test
- chem SPA
- next bio SPA

ok, maybe i was a bit too annoyed yesterday afternoon. but now i'm not! yay! it sort of struck me while i was singing the song 'like the river glorious' during yf last night. i mean, when i have God's perfect peace, why should i feel annoyed/ pissed off so easily? anyway i'll just share the 1st verse and the chorus here ( since i don't really remember the other 2 verses anyway). wait....i found the lyrics!

feel resentful of some things now. oh well....that's expected since i've been in a perpetual high last week, so i'm sure to come tumbling down the next few days. i mean, what goes up must come down...

it's this materialisation of the impending doom that i knew about since the june hols. so, this well of resentment has built up in me. i mean, now i have to share a bed with 2 other people, carry out random conversations, feel like my life is being scrutinised.....argh. i'm just being angsty. (is there such a word?)

don't know what's happening to me. feels like i'm slowly losing control of myself....

i dreaded and anticipated the arrival of this day. dread coz of my cello exam, anticipate coz of the class outing. today is just a day of major confusion and stuff. and seriously mixed feelings about everything and anything.

cello exam: well....it was sort of ok. didn't breakdown halfway or anything. luckily he didn't give those scales that i can't play/remember properly. maybe can pass. the worst part of the exam was when my D-string went out of tune while i was playing my C piece. i heard the sound of the peg turning and i was positively like 'AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH MUST THIS HAPPEN NOW?!?!' just have to thank God that it was not my A-string. it hates me. it breaks whenever i tune it. THANK YOU LORD FOR SEEING ME THROUGH ALL THIS!!!!

then i rushed home, put my cello down and went out again to plaza sing to watch movie. made a stop at paragon to pick up the piano dip exam forms. my friend seriously needs lessons on orchard road, don't know all the names of the buildings and stuff. that's random. Anyway, went to eat lunch first with jolyn, veron, changjie, jinyu, kelvin and honghui. then went to watch the movie with yueling, wenyan, jolyn, changjie and adrian.

SECRET IS QUITE NICE (i mean not bad for a directorial debut) the first part was like a typical schooldays love story. very corny. the lines were all so puke-inducing. wenyan kept complaining how lame it was for the 1st part. then the plot twist came. must applaud jay for that. it's sort of unexpected, especially if no one told you what the twist concerned. the twist made it worthwhile paying $8 for the tickets. the pieces start falling in place, what some people said previously started to make more sense. the piano playing was good too! anthony wong was hilarious as jay's dad in the show. seriously, it is not as bad as some people think it to be.

walked to taka after that. popped by at music essentials to find that my mute (for the cello lah) is OUT OF STOCK...ARGH. ate dinner wif changjie and adrian due to lack of food at home. so now i'm back at home finishing my 2nd eom draft. hc is really lag in pw as compared to ac.

i'm so...argh. sometimes i wish that moment would last forever, sometimes i wish somethings would never end. sometimes i wish, sometimes i dream, sometimes i fantasize. wat's happening to me?!?!

it's 9th aug....so happy bday s'pore! (even though u kind of got booted out of malaysia so the 1st national day wasn't a very happy one) i seem to have personified singapore. nevermind.

sheesh, i'm not even singaporean, but i love the holiday though! oh and the fireworks! they're so so so so so PRETTY!!!! but i must clear my homework, or i'll feel so guilty going out tomorrow. nevermind, just have to watch the fireworks on tv.

celebrated national day in school yesterday (like the rest of the students in singapore). ended super early, at 9.45?!? ok, wasn't spectacular or anything. the uniformed groups weren't very uniformed in their marching, the band major dropped his mace, this st. johns guy dropped the contents of his 1st aid bag all over the field, the concert was ok though it was quite funny. the whole atmosphere was just lacking something- like patriotism? haha.

went to the row of shophouses opposite beauty world after that with some 75ers. food was ok, wasn't very hungry anyway. then went back to school for the strings bday celebration thing, which was quite ok considering it's the 1st time the new welfare comm is doing it. quite a lot of people couldn't/didn't want to turn up. but overall still not bad. Good job audrey, wanfang and xiao pang!haha.

BUT....I SAW THE MGHANDBELLERS ON THE BUS WHILE GOING TO EAT LUNCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! they rock my socks man!the mg bus stop was soo full of mg girls so i tried looking out for my juniors. saw faye n isabel at the bus stop. THEN.....I SAW MONICA! so prominent, 1st one on the bus. i half screamed her name across the bus. haha...then could see rui, petty, cherie and roxanne behind. i think they were kinda surprised to see me. we all went very very HIGH! haha. talking rubbish for the few bus stops. the 75ers(my classmates: veron, kel, jianan, changjie and honghui) were like....-_-|||.

maybe it's just an mg thing, to go high when you see your juniors. maybe it's just an mghandbell thing. maybe it's because i'm really really close to all of them, i mean we went through so much as a performing grp 06. going high together! whether it was the MUSICAL, EXPRESSO, PRESIDENT STAR CHARITY, JAPAN TRIP, RANDOM PERFORMANCES! must admit that the handbellers of class of 06 just DON'T WANNA LEAVE HANDBELLS!we keep grabbing all opportunities to come back and stuff, even after our 'official retirement'. oh well....miss playing handbells like mad. AND I WANT THE SHIRT OK....IT'S SOOOOOOOO CUTE!

piano lesson soon...sian

it's technically a holiday tomorrow. don't need to study but still have to go to school early to have combined assembly with the high school. SIAN. why must we keep having combined assembly, it's a longer walk and i have to go to school slightly earlier.

As i type, like about half my class people are gazing into the sky, looking at stars. haha....i prefer my bed.there's suppose to be a meteorite shower today and the best time to see it is between 12am to 3am. that's the best time to sleep too! actually i don't mind going, considering i've never seen that before, but i bet my parents wouldn't allow me to go. anyway, my cello exam is on friday?!?! so i need to stay at home, practise and rest well.

my life is so full of music! i have some form of music lesson/music related stuff everyday this week. monday was cello lesson, today had extra cello lesson and piano lesson, tomorrow have extra aural lesson, thursday have make-up piano lesson and friday is THE EXAM DAY. wow. my fingers are so pathetic and weak, i'll just collapse while playing the arpeggios. or the scales. or the pieces for that matter.

AND...after cello exam, there's class outing! yay! that's the only thing i'm looking forward to this week. next week's going to be another busy week. econs timed assignment, bio spa, hand in WR draft 1, econs ilp presentation, etc.... randomly complaining about schoolwork.

OH! i didn't realise my grandma was coming today. erm...yay? i'm not that close to my grandparents, so yar. i'll just leave it as that. it's not like i don't like them to visit or anything, it's just that...just feels weird to have someone else in the house.... and my sis keeps saying how her life sucks due to the impending theory lessons and other stuff.

Nevermind. going to eat at venezia tomorrow with my sis after school! yay! i'm going to get fat like this....especially with the cake as well to celebrate the people in strings who were born in august.

i'm sleepy. quite sleepy. but it's gonna be the holidays soon. i'll try to clear my snowball, my mount of homework/potential homework.

fell asleep while doing compo, how terrible is that. ok, half fell asleep since i was writing unintelligently while closing my eyes. then my arm almost dropped off after playing the cello for so long.

math alternative assessment-don't quite know how to do some parts. nevermind, can't change it anyway since it's over. nothing really much to write about, except boring school stuff. need to do my math too. oh wells....

done with the links...got alot more girls then guys. but that's quite usual haha....

yay! only 2 days of school next week! woot! as in technically 2 days only....yay!

finally, i'm quite free. there's youth conference later, yay! haha...i think it'll be fun, but it's the message that's more important! only have 2DAYS of school next week! yay! i can clear my snowball and potential snowball. but then it also means that my cello exam is in less than a week's time. DIE. my arpeggios n stuff cannot make it.

stayed back on thurs to do work. very very productive. finished the case study in school. went high high high on friday. seriously. was very sleepy during gp (almost fell asleep doing the compre) and bio (almost fell asleep too, but too scared to)

BUT....i went very very high after break. i blame it on caro, cheryl and scott. sat in the midst of them during chem lecture. and they were going high and talking/singing random stuff. going high can be quite good when you're about to fall asleep any moment. learnt quite alot by staying awake...sort of.

then i was high during math tut. serious. more about that next time. gonna eat lunch.


ok...i'm back from youth conference. didn't make sense to go and post 2 posts on the same day. anyway...i went high during math tut. partially coz i was feeling exasperated about being unable to do integration by parts. it's so hard. so i asked the teacher how to do this question....

me: i dunno how to do 3 part 4! the integration by parts one! help!
teacher: (says something around how easy it is and how to do it)
me: but that's what i did! it's just that after i substitute the u'v it becomes more cheem!AHHHH!
(whole class laughs like mad after a 1 sec pause)
teacher: never seen anyone so ji dong from doing math

sigh....my classmates all said never see me so high before

THE MESSAGE FOR YOUTH CONFERENCE WAS GOOD! makes you think. yes, we all know what we are supposed to do, it's a matter of whether we do it. yes it is a real challenge for me to think biblically all the time, from a chritstian's worldview. it's the all the time part which is so hard. seriously. it's hard to be a good ambassador for God in this world. i just sat there feeling so guilty. sigh. got a lot of things to improve on.

ok....seems very very long. need to go take shower now.

well...sort of productive. we finished the bio and econs project! (sort of) AND i finally came round to editing my EOM! yayness! but then again it's due tomorrow so no choice....haha.

studied with cheryl after school for a while, after we finished discussing bio and econs. not bad, finished gp and some math. went home and slept for 20 min, then played piano and cello. after that, did a lot of project stuff. sigh. my sad mugger life.

watched an abortion video today. gruesome pictures man! ended up with a queasy stomach and had to look away a few times. It's not that i feel super grossed out looking at all the blood and all, it's more of the feeling that those foetuses could have been alive and kicking ( pardon the expression) if people hadn't decided to kill them. innocent blood shed. sigh. really....disgusted at the people's action, not the footages (ok, i admit, abit of the footages too)

the way the people handled the bodies was quite disgusting too. forever take up the head and show it, etc. EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW hope don't have nightmares.

i must start sleeping earlier. it's after 1 now. sigh

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