Lost in thoughts

1 week later....or maybe even more....

Monday, July 28, 2008 making-sweetness

oh WOW. i really haven't been going online in a long long while. no....it's not a hiatus, just that i've got more interesting things to do....and maybe coz i was super sleepy last week. i guess i kinda dedicated (almost) the whole of last week to reading (neil gaiman's ANANSI BOYS-quite a cool and fun book to read. loved the ending, though it was kinda predictable coz it's a sweet ending! sort of....), sleeping, TRYING to mug and eating.

how do you know that you've been sleeping too much?
1. you force yourself to go and sleep at 12am, though you're not tired at all. in fact, you've still got lotsa energy to carry on, but you're forcing youself to go and sleep so as not to (further) screw up your circadian clock.
2. you toss and turn in bed for what seems like an eternity....but it's actually been a mere 2hrs.
3. you wake up at 2am, STILL NOT SLEEPY. so you try to make yourself sleep by mugging.
4. chem notes that normally put you to sleep instantaneously don't seem to be working. you're as awake as ever.
5. you force yourself (again) to sleep at 5am....and wake up earlier than usual, feeling surprisingly refreshed.
6. you are totally NOT SLEEPY during the day, when you normally would have had to take an afternoon siesta.
7. you're still alive and awake at 10.24 pm, writing this stupid list. and still not tired....hahahah

i feel retarded doing that. hahahahahha. but i'm a very retarded girl anyway...low iq, childish and stuff.

soooooooo..i shall write more retarded things! oh....the durians i ate have been giving me pimples....ARGHHHHHHH. but they're TOOOOOOOOO GOOD TO RESIST!!! it's the mao shan wang one...hahahah. chao nice! =) but they stink up the fridge lyk mad. there's lotsa random fruits in the fridge. there's mangosteen, grapes, apples, oranges, nectarines, mango, kiwi, persimmon....last few weeks were better. there were apricots and cherries too! oooooo...i like stone/pitted fruits! chao nice! berries are nice too! hahahaha....this is 1 of the reasons why i wanna go and tour europe in summer-CAN GO BERRY PICKING!!! =)

okok....i think i've just shrunk everyone's brain with my pea-brained, air-headed talk. hahahahahah. i blame chemical messengers called hormones, electrical and chemical signals, 2nd messengers and all other signalling molecules and neurones for screwing up my brain. sometimes, i get that morbid mental picture of me at the edge of a cliff with the bag of marbles in my hand slowly slipping away, down into the unknown. the marbles go rolling down the steep slopes, always out of my reach, into the bottomless pit below...morbid man............

on another less retarded and less morbid note, 篮球火 IS OUT LIAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOTS!!!!!!!!!!

i'm sooooooo sorry to anyone/anything/someone/everyone about anything/something/everything. i suck mannnn. that which i hate most is that which i do. i really shouldn't have done it and my guilty conscience is really getting back at me for it. hahaha....at least i HAVE a conscience, better than some other strata of society who seem to lack it. the heart of man is as dark, black and bleak as midnight-i've since lost faith in the good of mankind long ago. it's intriguing, that i can't deny, but to harp on it and add sordid details....haiz. i hate myself for being part of this pain-inflicting business. the golden rule of 'do to others what you want them to do to you' was long forgotten, hidden in the deep recesses of my mind, causing me to turn into this monster...argh. christian charity, where art thou?

ok...i just feel guilty about many many stuff, like spreading this uber powerful bug to at least half the class. I'M SOOOOO SORRY FOR CAUSING PAIN, BREATHLESSNESS, CLOGGED AIRWAYS, ETC! whoever spread the bug to me is soooooooo gonna get it.

another matter that has really got me thinking (and annoyed) this week is how people choose style over substance, appearances over character, presentation over content, whatever you call it. i DESPISE such people! gosh....superficial man. yeah yeah, all that crap about 1st appearance count and stuff...it's unavoidable, but it just shows complete lack of maturity. just looking at what's on the outside's not gonna get anyone anywhere-it's the inside which counts. to me, choosing something or criticizing something just coz it looks unappealling is the same as why a 2yr old chooses the largest present of the lot even if you tell him/her that it's just an empty box and the smaller box is the one with the toy. actually, i'm p***ed off coz of 2 things-people viewing presentation as more inportant that pts raised for discussion and this person saying harsh, cruel things to another person when he/she has ABSOLUTELY NO RIGHT to make such a statement. that superficial person still go and brag about it to the world...like how immature is that? i totally rolled my eyes (and was uber tempted to give that person a mirror...ahahahahha) when i heard it. like...sheesh.

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